Time For Big Decisions, Hello 2016!

Here I am writing this on the last day of 2015 (real-time and not scheduled), while the husband is still sleeping and the little rockstar is watching Disney on TV. At this point, I've already read so many year-ender posts which made me ponder how I'd start and end mine. 

Time For Big Decisions, Hello 2016!

Am I going to list all my achievements? My success stories and my failures? Am I going to list my best blog posts? Or photos? Maybe in the next few days. I realized that the simplest yet grandest way to do it now is to be grateful. Be grateful for all the things, whether good or bad, that happened in 2015. Isn't that the best thing to do? 

Every year, I choose a one-word mantra to live by. This year, it's going to be EXPLORE. I've always told myself that I'm good at making decisions. There are things that we have to think about so carefully that we take so much time to decide. There are also things that just happen so fast that require us to decide promptly. 

Time For Big Decisions, Hello 2016!

I've been in both situations so many times. We can never be fully prepared of what lies ahead. Life is going to surprise us in so many ways. Like how it surprised me this year when I have finally decided to... leave. I have submitted my 30-days notice of resignation and my last day of work is January 26. Alas, after almost 7 years, my heart is already at peace of leaving the job that I held dear.

It's a big and difficult decision. And there are so many reasons why I had to do it. I haven't even considered applying for a new job just yet which is why it's scary. It's scary just thinking about all the things I have to consider financially, that among others. But it's also liberating. In so many ways.

I shared this quote on my Facebook profile because it describes exactly how I feel right now. There are a lot of things that could go wrong, I know that. But I also know that there are plenty of things that could go right. I just have to trust. And have faith. 

Time For Big Decisions, Hello 2016!

Along with the decision to leave my job is the decision to move back home -- to my hometown. It's a bigger and more difficult decision and I can't tell you how many times I have pondered and thought about it. Cebu has been my home for almost 7 years. It's also very hard to let go of all those 7 years of memories. 

It's difficult. However, it's even more difficult to second-guess. When you're caught between a rock and a hard place, you know in your heart that there's always that one thing you really want to do more than the other. And this is what I want to do. I want to move back home, for good

There, I said it. I don't know if I'm ever going to move back again to Cebu or move to other places. We never know. Anything can happen between now and the future. The possibilities are endless! 

I have a scheduled flight back home on February 2, with Reiko. With Reiko, and not with my husband just yet. Which I guess made it or will make it even more difficult. I don't know how that'd work but in true superwoman wannabe fashion, I already told myself... let's cross the bridge when we get there. 

Time For Big Decisions, Hello 2016!

All of these explain why I don't have resolutions. I have goals in mind, that's true. But in essence, 2016, for me, will be a year of exploring new possibilities. I will let life surprise me once in a while. Trust. Do what needs to be done. Let go. Move on. And hope for the best. 

Time For Big Decisions, Hello 2016!

This has been a long post so if you made it this far, thank you for reading. Thank you for sticking around and for being a part of this blissful slice of the internet I have. Believe me, I appreciate it so much!

Thank you 2015 for making me stronger and making me better. Thanks for the joyful moments, for the heartaches, and for all the learnings. I may not have done everything I wanted to accomplish but I sure have enjoyed the one big rollercoaster ride. 

Let's end the year with a smile. I wish you all an incredible and fantastic 2016. More stories and snapshots to come! ♥

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