January 4, 2016
Happy new year everyone and cheers to the first post of 2016! My one-week holiday vacation is about to end but that's not to say I'm crying over it because as we know, an ending is also a beginning. I am very positive that I can face this year with an even stronger heart and soul.
Last year, I chose ENJOY as my theme. This year, it's EXPLORE. On my previous post, I talked about some big and life-changing decisions and plans I have and how year 2016 is going to be full of surprises, exciting adventures, and endless possibilities.
To be honest, I've never been excited this much! I'm excited to write more stories, take more snapshots, and make more memories - whether alone, with family, friends, strangers, or anyone I meet along the way.
So what will I really explore this year? Some are somehow planned, some are not. Sometimes, we just have to let life lead the way. It doesn't always go as planned but we have to trust that it will lead us to the right place. That while the fear of the unknown gets in the way, life's exciting unpredictability takes it all away.
By the end of January, I will be officially unemployed for the first time in 7 years. Perhaps, I'd explore the idea of working online, or not working at all (?), and just focus on mothering? I know for sure that I have to earn a little to support my adventures and other bills, but we'll see.
Adventures are not just extreme sports, mountain climbing, spelunking, and the likes. For a superwoman wannabe like me, adventures are subjective! You can go to a nearby 7-11 at midnight to chat with your long-time friends and consider it an adventure. Or you can drop by Family Mart and buy yourself a Green Tea Ice Cream and consider it an adventure.
Adventures can be anything from doing something new at home to going all out and spending some of your hard-earned money to travel out of town or out of the country. It's your life, it's your adventure! Life in itself is an unending adventure!
Maybe I'll explore the things I'm not really good at. Calligraphy, hand lettering, swimming, vlogging, anything I fancy! After all, there's nothing wrong with trying something you're not very good at. What do you have to lose?
I'm sure there are lots of things to explore out there. Here and now, I'm going to face my fears and just live my life the way I want to, okay, the way we want to because of course, am I forgetting I'm actually married (hello, husband!)?!! Lol.
But anyhow, I'm so lucky enough to have a husband who allows me to celebrate my individuality and never complains about my wanderlust. Happy that even though we disagree on soooo many things, I never felt that I needed his or anyone's validations because I think and feel that he trusts me enough. Annoyed that most of the time he thinks I think I'm always right (okay, I do, I think I'm most of the time right but you'll thank me later). Hecckkk.
Do you know that feeling when you hate someone so much but there's no other place you want to be in but with him? Cheeseballs I know. Perhaps so that you can strangle him and shake him to life? Or to just be silent for a while and wish that everything's gonna be alright? OMG, did I just write that? Haha!!! Yep, story of my life.
My life is not really that of an open book. I do share some things online, mostly happy things, but behind those happy smiles are struggles that I battle as much as possible on my own so as not to burden others. Don't worry family and friends, when I say I'm fine, I'm really fine or just give me a day and I will be fine. And for sure I'm going to ask your help if things become really terrible.
I'm very bold to say though that I always emerge victorious in my own way in every battle I fight. Which is why it's very important to surround yourself with positive and supportive people, that even when you know you don't need their advice, they will always be there to listen.
So maybe year 2016 is also gonna be about exploring the depths of my relationships with my loved ones. Spending quality time and just being present even when I'm away.
Whew, another long post! I think new year triggers our emotions, ahhhh cheeseballs! But thanks again for reading. Hope you find the best word that will describe your year. Celebrate my friends! ♥